and a lot has changed in my life. and i finally need to write down my feelings... somewhere. in June i started a relationship with someone who i feel is the love of my life. when we met 6 years ago and dated then, i may not have known it, but i truely believe there is a right time for everything and this is it. this is fate.
my biggest struggles right now are with my daughter. i'm afraid i have failed her. we have the relationship i imagined we would have when she was 14. she talks back, says hateful things. This morning she was sad for some reason, didn't want to go to school. She didn't want my comfort. she wouldn't even let me hold her hand. my heart aches so intensely in this moment i can hardly even stand it. I have had to be a mommy and a daddy, her sole discipliner. I think she may resent me for it. she always seems happier to be with anyone besides me. I try really hard to make time for just her and I, but sometimes i feel like there is no way i can do what i need to for her. i just don't know what to do, but i pray it gets better with time.
I love her more than anything in the world.
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